Not sexy

Hey! I DO not think Orlando Bloom is sexy.

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Today I have lost my dog Jack. He died...
He was The Best Dog In The Whole Damn World! He was MY dog, MY baby...

About 2 weeks ago we were at Vet. My old dog Jack was very bad. His internal had an ageing failure :(((((((((((. He was very old dog . He was 16... I was nursing him. I was trying to do all I can. I fed him using a big syringe... He had 6 injections every morning and evening. I was fighting for him against the death.
It was hard to see he is getting weak. I was hoping he would get well soon and stay with me some more time.

After 5 days of doing injections we visited Vet again... The doctor said Jack was dying. We did biochemical blood analysis again and it was awful. My hope that he may get well was broken....
The doctor offered us to put him to the death sleep right there... I could not do it. I could not...We took him home. The doctor said we hade 3-5 days...We stopped doing any injections. The doctor said they were helpless in his case. Jack had a renal insufficiency.... his kidney just stopped working and hi was poisoning himself by the urea...

It was very hard for me to understand that he was dying. We took him home and I continue nursing him. I fed him cooked semolina using a big syringe, carryed him at my hands like a baby, I didn't sleep nights, I have sent to the hell my degree work. I was trying to make him comfortable and elongate his life just by one day more.you know I was happy when I had just another day with him.

I had 5 beautiful, amazing and hard days after we were told that he... I did all I can. I won those 5 days...

today Jack had gone. It is so hard to see a n emty place instesd of his "dog's nest"...

I'm crying... I was drinking vodka, but it has no effect on me... no effect heh...


Jack was my birthday present. I was 12 when I have got this god present. I have spent almost all my conscious life with him.... thanks God I have another dog Marta still with me.

I can't imagine how I will sleep tonight. It's 2-34 am here... I can't fall asleep...

yes, you could say he was just an old dog... and it is a natural process... it's a nature of the universe that everything is going to the end....

well, I know it. I understand it.but my heart is bleeding and my soul is in pain.

I know I need time. Time is a best doctor...

Damn vodka! why it does not have any effect on me? why today?

I've lost MY friend, MY baby.I hope he had a happy life with me. I was with him till the end. I love him much...

fuck it's so hurt!

Women's best friends

About a week ago I was at the most wonderful and adorable place for almost all women in the world. I was at the beauty shop.

I know I'm sounding blonde, but I don't care!

I'm not keen on makeup, but I was spellbound by many little things, different colored and brushes!
You should know that makeup could make every woman look beautiful and women use this magic to impress ... no, not men. Women always try to impress other women.

So,I bought heaps of different eye shadows and rouge and brushes... And I spent heaps of money on it.

I'm a very curious woman and when I came home I tried to use all things I have bought. Of course after 15 minutes of experimenting I was look like a clown. :)

Ahhh... I should be more patient I thought when I was putting a new Lemon color mixed with Blue one onto my poor face.

Shearing Dog

Before/After

I'm proud to say that today we did a great job. One of our 2 little dogs was sheared! Yahhhooo!
I can't say I'm a hero, but it was not easy to trim that little violently kicking creature. Sometimes she was silent and sigh deeply. It was just wonderful she didn't bite me or our trimming tool.

Well, It was 2 hours of a hard work. I was trimming and Alex was assisting me. We were trimming her almost naked wearing only underwear and a kitchen aprons to avoid that damn hairs (wool (?)) that was everywhere. It was a war, a battle with that thick curly hairs!!! We won it! The little dog is trimmed, washed and sleeping in the armchiar!

Amen ))))

Headhunting (Picking Carrots)

Well... I'm looking for a new job. That sucks!

(Is not it a great first post, yea?:))

After I was graduated from the uni I have been working for a Company for 4.5 years. It was a huge company, an oil monster, it was an Empire. Now it is almost all sold by auction.

I don't care about politics and all this dirty things that was around my Company. I just faced that fact that I need to change my job.

To tell you the truth it was not the main reason. I'm finishing my russian MBA program in Strategic Management and Entrepreneurship and I'm writing my Degree Research now. So I want to improve my professional skills (to earn more money and to send to the hell this damn and stupid work duties) and to use my knowlege of the foreign language.

I can say I'm a job searching guru now. I had heaps of interviews since I decided to change it.
I have spent many hours in a small rooms for the interviews at the different agencies (I used to call them toilets because they are so small and stuffy, so I guess they could cause a claustrophobia at every normal human being).

I can't say recruiting agencies are very friendly. They are looking for the candidates and it's like a shopping for them. There are lots of candidates around and agencies don't have a great need in searching. They just picking people like a fresh carrots from the field.

Once, I had an interview in one company and the probable boss asked me if I have a good health. I stared at her and asked what did she mean. She asked me also if I can work 12 hours every day... and have a business trips every 2 weeks. I guess a previous worker had died a unnatural death without seeing a blue sky, food and his family. :)
I'm not very fastidious... really. I have a working weekends from time to time and I can stay late at work to do all I have to do... But, it confused me though.