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Today I have lost my dog Jack. He died...
He was The Best Dog In The Whole Damn World! He was MY dog, MY baby...

About 2 weeks ago we were at Vet. My old dog Jack was very bad. His internal had an ageing failure :(((((((((((. He was very old dog . He was 16... I was nursing him. I was trying to do all I can. I fed him using a big syringe... He had 6 injections every morning and evening. I was fighting for him against the death.
It was hard to see he is getting weak. I was hoping he would get well soon and stay with me some more time.

After 5 days of doing injections we visited Vet again... The doctor said Jack was dying. We did biochemical blood analysis again and it was awful. My hope that he may get well was broken....
The doctor offered us to put him to the death sleep right there... I could not do it. I could not...We took him home. The doctor said we hade 3-5 days...We stopped doing any injections. The doctor said they were helpless in his case. Jack had a renal insufficiency.... his kidney just stopped working and hi was poisoning himself by the urea...

It was very hard for me to understand that he was dying. We took him home and I continue nursing him. I fed him cooked semolina using a big syringe, carryed him at my hands like a baby, I didn't sleep nights, I have sent to the hell my degree work. I was trying to make him comfortable and elongate his life just by one day more.you know I was happy when I had just another day with him.

I had 5 beautiful, amazing and hard days after we were told that he... I did all I can. I won those 5 days...

today Jack had gone. It is so hard to see a n emty place instesd of his "dog's nest"...

I'm crying... I was drinking vodka, but it has no effect on me... no effect heh...


Jack was my birthday present. I was 12 when I have got this god present. I have spent almost all my conscious life with him.... thanks God I have another dog Marta still with me.

I can't imagine how I will sleep tonight. It's 2-34 am here... I can't fall asleep...

yes, you could say he was just an old dog... and it is a natural process... it's a nature of the universe that everything is going to the end....

well, I know it. I understand it.but my heart is bleeding and my soul is in pain.

I know I need time. Time is a best doctor...

Damn vodka! why it does not have any effect on me? why today?

I've lost MY friend, MY baby.I hope he had a happy life with me. I was with him till the end. I love him much...

fuck it's so hurt!